Sometimes I feel so inadequate as a parent
Today little bear must have asked a dozen times that we don't go to nursery tomorrow. He doesn't want to go to nursery, he's too tired/too poorly/a child roared at him...
Everyone is baffled. I have been to the nursery on all sorts of odd occasions, and it is far from a pit of vipers. In fact it is a pleasant, clean and stimulating place. I know that they are lovely with him, it is evident.
Last time I took him it was when I had my last lot of physio before Christmas. Poor little mite begged me to leave him with Grandad (darling father had a date, so that couldn't happen) and then, when forcibly left at nursery he sobbed that I was too come back as soon as I can.
I have to keep taking him there, or I am making such a rod for my back when he gets to school. I need the chance for drs appts, clinics etc.
But every day he has been saying that he doesn't want to go to nursery. I am dreading his first day back.
Friday, 31 December 2010
Little bear doesn't like sleep
As little bear is officially now a big boy (according to him) he no longer has a gate on his room. This means that the latest he has woken me with a slammed door is 8.30.
Little bear has always had vitamins. I regard them as a useful supplement but that really it is my job to get good food into him. I fail, therefore vitamins aren't bad. He LOVES his crunchy Kids Vitamins.
Little bear has been taking a syrup for eczema which has now vanished without trace (so I suspect not eczema). He enjoyed the taste of this, and it was part of his bedtime routine. We have run out of the syrup (still no sign of itching or affected skin).
Little bear wants his medicine. He NEEDS his medicine because he is poorly. He is too poorly to go to nursery again, again, again. His throat is sore. And he won't go to sleep, he needs someone to keep him company and he doesn't like sleep. He is fine, full of energy, bright eyed, bushy tailed and not poorly in any shape or form.
Last night little bear had hysterics for two hours. Well, I say hysterics, he was jumping up and down, screaming, shouting and generally cross at the world. In the end he had a half dose of child's buttercup syrup given with much play acting about how strong it was.
He is getting worse and worse when he comes to bedtimes, he is fighting sleep every step of the way (just like his parents did at his age, and continue to do).
We are fighting the battle of sleep first, and picking up a bottle of malt extract for his 'medicine'. Then we can fight the battle of the medicine bottle.
Little bear has always had vitamins. I regard them as a useful supplement but that really it is my job to get good food into him. I fail, therefore vitamins aren't bad. He LOVES his crunchy Kids Vitamins.
Little bear has been taking a syrup for eczema which has now vanished without trace (so I suspect not eczema). He enjoyed the taste of this, and it was part of his bedtime routine. We have run out of the syrup (still no sign of itching or affected skin).
Little bear wants his medicine. He NEEDS his medicine because he is poorly. He is too poorly to go to nursery again, again, again. His throat is sore. And he won't go to sleep, he needs someone to keep him company and he doesn't like sleep. He is fine, full of energy, bright eyed, bushy tailed and not poorly in any shape or form.
Last night little bear had hysterics for two hours. Well, I say hysterics, he was jumping up and down, screaming, shouting and generally cross at the world. In the end he had a half dose of child's buttercup syrup given with much play acting about how strong it was.
He is getting worse and worse when he comes to bedtimes, he is fighting sleep every step of the way (just like his parents did at his age, and continue to do).
We are fighting the battle of sleep first, and picking up a bottle of malt extract for his 'medicine'. Then we can fight the battle of the medicine bottle.
I managed to knock my shoulder again, which has been grumbling, and have somehow had an allergic reaction to something that took three boxes of tissues, but really, I feel blessed. I can grumble and complain and fret, but I have a warm, safe house. Little bear is gorgeous. I have water!
Now is a good time of year to count blessings, and I shall do.
Now is a good time of year to count blessings, and I shall do.
Thursday, 30 December 2010
Operation Clutterbust 11
Today I emptied six one litre bottles of UHT milk down the sink. They had expired August 2009, but had been stored in an awkward corner. Another two litres of orange juice of an even older vintage went with it.
Wrapping paper has been binned, as has the multitude of cardboard boxes. At least the ones that little bear can bear to part with.
I did add a stack of wrapping paper, but I have identified a place for it. I have also comfort bought two 50g balls of weird yarn which ends up looking like a long pile bath mat. I managed to stop myself buying 1600g of copper coloured chenille in the nick of time!
OH is busy identifying things he wants to go. It is hard for me, he identified an ornament that he didn't want, and I agreed that I didn't want to keep it. So he threw it in the bin. That is so hard for me, my instinct is to say, recycle, charity, possibly ebay. Several items ended up like that, none of them family things or anything, but it is a little uncomforting. I have marked an equivalent on my bar to keep my tally and my spirits up.
Now concerned about the multiplicity of jigsaws that little bear has now accumulated and how on earth do I store them? I was really proud when I managed to throw out a Vanish container. I may have been a little hasty.
Wrapping paper has been binned, as has the multitude of cardboard boxes. At least the ones that little bear can bear to part with.
I did add a stack of wrapping paper, but I have identified a place for it. I have also comfort bought two 50g balls of weird yarn which ends up looking like a long pile bath mat. I managed to stop myself buying 1600g of copper coloured chenille in the nick of time!
OH is busy identifying things he wants to go. It is hard for me, he identified an ornament that he didn't want, and I agreed that I didn't want to keep it. So he threw it in the bin. That is so hard for me, my instinct is to say, recycle, charity, possibly ebay. Several items ended up like that, none of them family things or anything, but it is a little uncomforting. I have marked an equivalent on my bar to keep my tally and my spirits up.
Now concerned about the multiplicity of jigsaws that little bear has now accumulated and how on earth do I store them? I was really proud when I managed to throw out a Vanish container. I may have been a little hasty.
Second verse same as the first
Her three doors down has moved out after selling her house to That Landlord. Goodness only knows who he will bring in - he doesn't seem to take up references. However as I have only put some of the stuff she came out with on here, and none of the stuff that carried a jail sentence, you will have to take my word for it that she is not missed.
I don't know whether it was a parting shot, someone else or what but someone was outside today taking pictures of the cars outside Nice Mr Next Door's house.
Here we go again!
I don't know whether it was a parting shot, someone else or what but someone was outside today taking pictures of the cars outside Nice Mr Next Door's house.
Here we go again!
Little bear is full of presents
Dear heaven, little bear has lots. He is the only child in the family, he has his birthday four days away from Christmas and he blatantly and transparently loves his presents. This includes a lovely nativity colouring book which has been thoroughly examined and attacked, thank you Morgan. That is incredibly kind of you.
You see, that is one reason little bear attracts presents. He genuinely loves all presents. He was thrilled with the colouring book. He was thrilled with the educational card game. After OH had taken down the huge toy castle to make way for the even bigger train set, little bear is thrilled with ALL his presents. The train set is HUGE and there is potential for add ons.
SIL dropped in yesterday. She had already given him two sets of dressing up (he has slept in both) and a bumble bee transformer helmet (if you don't know, don't ask) but just popped in with a few other things. Little bear glowed with joy. I think I might have glowed with bafflement - she bought him bedding. It is gorgeous bedding, but it just seems a little odd. Little bear, of course, loves it!.
I shall be tripping over stuff for weeks now.
You see, that is one reason little bear attracts presents. He genuinely loves all presents. He was thrilled with the colouring book. He was thrilled with the educational card game. After OH had taken down the huge toy castle to make way for the even bigger train set, little bear is thrilled with ALL his presents. The train set is HUGE and there is potential for add ons.
SIL dropped in yesterday. She had already given him two sets of dressing up (he has slept in both) and a bumble bee transformer helmet (if you don't know, don't ask) but just popped in with a few other things. Little bear glowed with joy. I think I might have glowed with bafflement - she bought him bedding. It is gorgeous bedding, but it just seems a little odd. Little bear, of course, loves it!.
I shall be tripping over stuff for weeks now.
Evil cat sucks
Poor old evil cat, at her time of life. She is elderly. Little bear had left some sausage and she wanted it sooooo much. I caught her giving it a determined suck.
Yes, of course I chopped it and put in in her bowl. And it vanished!
Her teeth are just not up to much any more. However her temper is alive, well and as strong as ever as I have some really good, vivid and long lasting scratches from a dispute over who sat on the chair...
Yes, of course I chopped it and put in in her bowl. And it vanished!
Her teeth are just not up to much any more. However her temper is alive, well and as strong as ever as I have some really good, vivid and long lasting scratches from a dispute over who sat on the chair...
Saturday, 25 December 2010
Digging up the Past Chapter Nine
Chapter Nine is up
The last 240 words took me a week. I need to work on this.
The last 240 words took me a week. I need to work on this.
Thursday, 23 December 2010
Popping in
Little bear, now that there is no longer a gate on his door, has decided that he wants to sleep downstairs with mummy. I am sleeping on the sofa due to arm.
So in the middle of last night, as he has for the last few nights, little bear comes stomping downstairs, slams the door at the bottom of the stairs, takes over the sofa so I end up sleeping on the chair, and goes to sleep. We are both exhausted.
He was gorgeous at his nativity, he is currently clingy but I am sure things will turn out okay.
So in the middle of last night, as he has for the last few nights, little bear comes stomping downstairs, slams the door at the bottom of the stairs, takes over the sofa so I end up sleeping on the chair, and goes to sleep. We are both exhausted.
He was gorgeous at his nativity, he is currently clingy but I am sure things will turn out okay.
Sunday, 19 December 2010
Side effects
As part of the clutterbusting in the bathroom I emptied an elderly bottle of shower gel (gift) into the handwash container and diluted it a little.
I am not sure I did it right, to be honest. Every time I try and squirt it the stuff comes out as if it was fired from a water cannon.
I am not sure I did it right, to be honest. Every time I try and squirt it the stuff comes out as if it was fired from a water cannon.
Operation Clutterbust 10
We have 'done' two six foot high, three foot wide bookcases.
The process is that we take all the books off, then one of us will go and put back all the ones they actually want - not the ones that they think someone else might and not the ones that they think that they ought, just the ones that they want. And if you want to keep a book you do not have to justify it, it is enough that you want it.
There is at least three times that amount of books still to go through, and it is like painting the Forth Bridge before the new paint, but it is a good feeling.
It always raises some interesting questions. There are the books you really want to read but haven't yet, there are the reference books and the books that are hard to replace. However I found we had somehow acquired a multitude of copies of the Imitation of Christ. I don't remember ever buying them, I am confident that OH or darling father didn't - so where did they come from? And while 'The Imitation of Christ' isn't necessarily solely Roman Catholic book, neither myself, OH or any of either of our immediate family are Roman Catholic. I know one or two that were inherited, and I have kept them. The rest have gone.
The process is that we take all the books off, then one of us will go and put back all the ones they actually want - not the ones that they think someone else might and not the ones that they think that they ought, just the ones that they want. And if you want to keep a book you do not have to justify it, it is enough that you want it.
There is at least three times that amount of books still to go through, and it is like painting the Forth Bridge before the new paint, but it is a good feeling.
It always raises some interesting questions. There are the books you really want to read but haven't yet, there are the reference books and the books that are hard to replace. However I found we had somehow acquired a multitude of copies of the Imitation of Christ. I don't remember ever buying them, I am confident that OH or darling father didn't - so where did they come from? And while 'The Imitation of Christ' isn't necessarily solely Roman Catholic book, neither myself, OH or any of either of our immediate family are Roman Catholic. I know one or two that were inherited, and I have kept them. The rest have gone.
Anti Clutterbust 3
Matalan are selling some gift wrap at 3 for the price of two. I didn't see the exact price, but Matalan are usually extremely reasonable when it comes to price.
A few years ago I bought similar wrap. It is sort of sparkly, either gold or silver and with a sort of holographic effect. And it is completely neutral. I bought a shed load and it has served well for birthday's and Christmases for a while, because it can be used for either. It is also quite good quality, it wraps easily and we also have gift tags in both silver and gold, again useful for any occasion. We are coming to the end of that stock, and I am thinking of once again buying a vast quantity. In fact I am thinking of getting quite a few rolls as not only can I not think of any gift giving occasion when the wrap would not be suitable, but little bear is of an age when cutting up sparkly wrapping paper and sticking it to things is becoming increasingly attractive.
It is entirely in my nature to go and buy a dozen rolls, and I know that they will be used, be useful and not expire. But it's not really Clutterbust. I think that this is one of those times when I should go with my nature. Also, I shall perhaps get in on Boxing Day/27th when it may be a little less expensive.
A few years ago I bought similar wrap. It is sort of sparkly, either gold or silver and with a sort of holographic effect. And it is completely neutral. I bought a shed load and it has served well for birthday's and Christmases for a while, because it can be used for either. It is also quite good quality, it wraps easily and we also have gift tags in both silver and gold, again useful for any occasion. We are coming to the end of that stock, and I am thinking of once again buying a vast quantity. In fact I am thinking of getting quite a few rolls as not only can I not think of any gift giving occasion when the wrap would not be suitable, but little bear is of an age when cutting up sparkly wrapping paper and sticking it to things is becoming increasingly attractive.
It is entirely in my nature to go and buy a dozen rolls, and I know that they will be used, be useful and not expire. But it's not really Clutterbust. I think that this is one of those times when I should go with my nature. Also, I shall perhaps get in on Boxing Day/27th when it may be a little less expensive.
Saturday, 18 December 2010
Operation Clutterbust 9
OH is in a clearout mood, and what with moving a chair for darling father etc there was a lot of stuff to clear in the study - so I need to update the total by four bin bags and four bags of clothes etc to the clothes bank at the tip.
Then I couldn't stand the mess in the bathroom any longer. And because things have been disorganised there are lots of duplication and heaps - another black bin bag out of there.
And I am about to go down and see what I can do in the kitchen. The huge mound of cloth in the study is currently a huge mound of cloth in the kitchen, which will need to be sorted out.
However it will probably still be there when I make bacon butties tomorrow morning as in a few minutes I will start to get ready for OH's work do.
Then I couldn't stand the mess in the bathroom any longer. And because things have been disorganised there are lots of duplication and heaps - another black bin bag out of there.
And I am about to go down and see what I can do in the kitchen. The huge mound of cloth in the study is currently a huge mound of cloth in the kitchen, which will need to be sorted out.
However it will probably still be there when I make bacon butties tomorrow morning as in a few minutes I will start to get ready for OH's work do.
Friday, 17 December 2010
Must not shop
I forgot to take my happy pill last night and you could tell from what I bought in matalan. Given my iffy shoulder, knackered ankle and bad back, why did I buy a pair of four inch heels? Obviously they are boots with ankle supports, massive square heels, soles like army boots and more buckles than any respectable middle aged biddy should be wearing. Also 'fleece' lined.
No, I've no idea.
Little bear threw a huge tantrum at nursery. He did not want to stay at nursery without me. He needed me to look after him, he was not happy. When I moved away from him to another part of the room he kept checking out my position. When I went to leave he grabbed his coat and shot out, down the stairs and towards the door. It was awful. The nursery lady had to carry him away, screaming.
He didn't spot me at first when I came to pick him up. He was fine, he was having a great time and was pretty happy.
However he has expressed huge displeasure at the idea of mummy going out tomorrow evening! As it is the third time in his lifetime he can find it odd, but I can find it acceptable.
Anyway, I am tired, fed up, low and in the mood for shopping. No-one let me near ebay.
(Also, with a drawer that won't close properly full of little bear's pyjamas, why did I buy him two more pairs?)
No, I've no idea.
Little bear threw a huge tantrum at nursery. He did not want to stay at nursery without me. He needed me to look after him, he was not happy. When I moved away from him to another part of the room he kept checking out my position. When I went to leave he grabbed his coat and shot out, down the stairs and towards the door. It was awful. The nursery lady had to carry him away, screaming.
He didn't spot me at first when I came to pick him up. He was fine, he was having a great time and was pretty happy.
However he has expressed huge displeasure at the idea of mummy going out tomorrow evening! As it is the third time in his lifetime he can find it odd, but I can find it acceptable.
Anyway, I am tired, fed up, low and in the mood for shopping. No-one let me near ebay.
(Also, with a drawer that won't close properly full of little bear's pyjamas, why did I buy him two more pairs?)
Bear nap
Little bear did not want to go to nursery today. As soon as the idea was mooted he was not happy, he didn't want to go to nursery, he was too poorly, his leg hurt...
'There's going to be a party and Santa might be there.' I said.
'I go on my scooter, I go really fast, we get dressed now. I lub Santa!'
So I leave him to have the small sandwiches that he was going to force down for lunch while I check the weather online. I was allowing myself 45 minutes to have him eat, get him dressed etc. When I go back he had fallen asleep.
I'll get him there in time for the party.
'There's going to be a party and Santa might be there.' I said.
'I go on my scooter, I go really fast, we get dressed now. I lub Santa!'
So I leave him to have the small sandwiches that he was going to force down for lunch while I check the weather online. I was allowing myself 45 minutes to have him eat, get him dressed etc. When I go back he had fallen asleep.
I'll get him there in time for the party.
Thursday, 16 December 2010
Nooks and crannies
Morgan - Our house is around 100 years old, give or take, and brick built end back to back terrace. It is in a bit of an odd sort of mix. There are awful looking council houses that are built oddly, old just about not slum brick terraces, some rather nice thirties semi-detacheds, business parks, industrial estates and farms within half a mile of here.
The house itself is a funny mix. The bottom floor is half sunk into the ground and quite low ceilings, I think it was a cellar originally and is now a kitchen and dining room with a walk in cupboard (estate agent's description) which is actually about four foot wide or more and about ten feet long. Then above that are Edwardian high ceilings, two main rooms per floor up with the living room and study, little bear's room and darling father's room, also a bathroom that is small than some cars. Then up a really twisty staircase to OH's room and the junk room.
Realistically we are not making the most of our space. but we will get there, I am determined. There are less nooks and crannies than I would like, but then I am odd. A few yards down the road, a little further than little bear's nursery, is a house that I think originally was one house but now is two. It is odd, different from the other thirties terraces and industrial estate that are next to it, looks like four stories and at one point has sort of stairs that go up the outside of the building and seem to go nowhere. There are all sorts of jutting out bits and side bits. I am fascinated.
The house itself is a funny mix. The bottom floor is half sunk into the ground and quite low ceilings, I think it was a cellar originally and is now a kitchen and dining room with a walk in cupboard (estate agent's description) which is actually about four foot wide or more and about ten feet long. Then above that are Edwardian high ceilings, two main rooms per floor up with the living room and study, little bear's room and darling father's room, also a bathroom that is small than some cars. Then up a really twisty staircase to OH's room and the junk room.
Realistically we are not making the most of our space. but we will get there, I am determined. There are less nooks and crannies than I would like, but then I am odd. A few yards down the road, a little further than little bear's nursery, is a house that I think originally was one house but now is two. It is odd, different from the other thirties terraces and industrial estate that are next to it, looks like four stories and at one point has sort of stairs that go up the outside of the building and seem to go nowhere. There are all sorts of jutting out bits and side bits. I am fascinated.
More than I can chew
I have definitely bitten off more than I can chew...
I wanted to clear out the bottom cupboards in the corner as I haven't been in them for two years. There is a floor to ceiling built in cupboard, around a foot deep and around three foot wide, divided into two halves. We have never really been able to use it properly as there has always been furniture against it. In the bottom half of the cupboard was craft stuff (that much I knew) though not sure of what ilk, and I wanted to empty it, sort it and put the Christmas decorations (plus any other seasonal stuff like Halloween) in there. The top cupboard is going to hold drinks and as we now eat in the living room there is going to be a tray with salt, pepper etc.
Little bear heard me talking about this...
Little bear has never been allowed in the top cupboards, I was worried about trapped fingers etc. I think his imagination has populated it with magical wonders. As for the bottom cupboard, that was indeed a place of mystery. I warned him if we was there that he would have to be careful as there were lots of sharp things so at 7.30 this morning he was there, wearing silicone oven gloves and declaring that he was careful and was wearing gloves for protection and can we do the cupboards now please.
Finally we started. Darling father stayed out of it, sensibly. First we had to move the sofa. Now, I am being all precious about my shoulder, and I am having trouble sleeping comfortably, so why I thought it was a good idea to pull around all the furniture in the living room while darling father was out I have no idea, but my shoulder has survived remarkably well, and it has also been quite sturdy when reaching in for things.
Actually, not much of the living room furniture is in the same place it was this morning what with moving a sofa that is a little bit big for the room. And the sofa was an adventure all in itself as not only did I find expected rubbish but two audio books I think OH would like but cannot recall when they came into the house. Also two folding, adjustable table that will come in really useful.
I have found all sorts of stuff in the bottom cupboard, mainly counted cross stitch which I haven't done for years. It is just not safe at the moment with little bear, though I will be having another go in a year or two. I am not getting rid of a lot of that, because I found quite a few kits that I really wanted to do. I also found a lot of half started projects...
I can't reach all the shelves of the top cupboard but I have found another box full of bric a brac (will update after they go) and a vast quantity of candles I didn't know I had. I found huge quantities of knitting supplies, lots of odds and ends and I have two bin bags to add to the total.
I am taking five minutes and then I shall have to go back and carry on. I have emptied a lot out of the cupboards, but I need to find a temporary home for the bric a brac, I need to clean where the sofa has been (little bear was far too impatient to allow that earlier), I need to relocate a lot of stuff temporarily to the junk room and I need to put the furniture back.
After I got rid of a lot of boxes I haven't got a suitable box for the bric a brac. Darn.
I wanted to clear out the bottom cupboards in the corner as I haven't been in them for two years. There is a floor to ceiling built in cupboard, around a foot deep and around three foot wide, divided into two halves. We have never really been able to use it properly as there has always been furniture against it. In the bottom half of the cupboard was craft stuff (that much I knew) though not sure of what ilk, and I wanted to empty it, sort it and put the Christmas decorations (plus any other seasonal stuff like Halloween) in there. The top cupboard is going to hold drinks and as we now eat in the living room there is going to be a tray with salt, pepper etc.
Little bear heard me talking about this...
Little bear has never been allowed in the top cupboards, I was worried about trapped fingers etc. I think his imagination has populated it with magical wonders. As for the bottom cupboard, that was indeed a place of mystery. I warned him if we was there that he would have to be careful as there were lots of sharp things so at 7.30 this morning he was there, wearing silicone oven gloves and declaring that he was careful and was wearing gloves for protection and can we do the cupboards now please.
Finally we started. Darling father stayed out of it, sensibly. First we had to move the sofa. Now, I am being all precious about my shoulder, and I am having trouble sleeping comfortably, so why I thought it was a good idea to pull around all the furniture in the living room while darling father was out I have no idea, but my shoulder has survived remarkably well, and it has also been quite sturdy when reaching in for things.
Actually, not much of the living room furniture is in the same place it was this morning what with moving a sofa that is a little bit big for the room. And the sofa was an adventure all in itself as not only did I find expected rubbish but two audio books I think OH would like but cannot recall when they came into the house. Also two folding, adjustable table that will come in really useful.
I have found all sorts of stuff in the bottom cupboard, mainly counted cross stitch which I haven't done for years. It is just not safe at the moment with little bear, though I will be having another go in a year or two. I am not getting rid of a lot of that, because I found quite a few kits that I really wanted to do. I also found a lot of half started projects...
I can't reach all the shelves of the top cupboard but I have found another box full of bric a brac (will update after they go) and a vast quantity of candles I didn't know I had. I found huge quantities of knitting supplies, lots of odds and ends and I have two bin bags to add to the total.
I am taking five minutes and then I shall have to go back and carry on. I have emptied a lot out of the cupboards, but I need to find a temporary home for the bric a brac, I need to clean where the sofa has been (little bear was far too impatient to allow that earlier), I need to relocate a lot of stuff temporarily to the junk room and I need to put the furniture back.
After I got rid of a lot of boxes I haven't got a suitable box for the bric a brac. Darn.
Wednesday, 15 December 2010
Operation Clutterbust 8
A while ago I bought mini naan breads for OH. I don't particularly like them but he said he did.
Today I threw out thirty of them - a warning not to second guess OH's taste and to STOP OVER STOCKING!
Also I have been through my cupboard. I've thrown some stuff out and rearranged others. This includes a jar of pickled red cabbage that I made before little bear was born.
I never used to leave it to get this bad. I can't let this carry on.
Today I threw out thirty of them - a warning not to second guess OH's taste and to STOP OVER STOCKING!
Also I have been through my cupboard. I've thrown some stuff out and rearranged others. This includes a jar of pickled red cabbage that I made before little bear was born.
I never used to leave it to get this bad. I can't let this carry on.
False alarm?
I haven't inspected the place where they parked, and I am not sure exactly what is happening, but the men with the road working equipment have gone. I don't know if they are the same ones who previously dumped surplus tarmac (gratefully received).
The road at the side of us is a ripper of exhausts and a bumpy 1 in 4 slope, with potholes and rubbish plus some enterprising parking. It is privately owned and recently up for sale @ £2,000. It got no takers - apparently one of the conditions of sale was to make it possible to drive on safely.
The road at the side of us is a ripper of exhausts and a bumpy 1 in 4 slope, with potholes and rubbish plus some enterprising parking. It is privately owned and recently up for sale @ £2,000. It got no takers - apparently one of the conditions of sale was to make it possible to drive on safely.
Could be a good thing?
Men with road working equipment have been parked outside our house. As the street surface is the worst I have ever seen in an urban environment, surely anything they do has to be a good thing, right?
Except that I am a pessimistic cynic, and also, we (or the mortgage) own part of the road, it is on the deeds. I don't want an unexpected bill.
Well, working noises are happening but not directly outside, so we shall see what we shall see.
Except that I am a pessimistic cynic, and also, we (or the mortgage) own part of the road, it is on the deeds. I don't want an unexpected bill.
Well, working noises are happening but not directly outside, so we shall see what we shall see.
Tuesday, 14 December 2010
Little bear 'is helping'
I have updated the bin bag total. It would have been seriously more if little bear had co-operated. Now my shoulder is grumbling. I don't know how much I should indulge it as it feels like a spoilt brat at the moment.
And my ironing currently can fit in a small basket! This is unheard of. I am sure it will change soon, and you won't believe the dirty washing I have found.
And my ironing currently can fit in a small basket! This is unheard of. I am sure it will change soon, and you won't believe the dirty washing I have found.
Clutterbust concerns
The bin men are on strike. Something to do with severe weather payments, apparently.
Well, I can see where they could be coming from, but darn and poot!
Well, I can see where they could be coming from, but darn and poot!
Blush
The bin men have not been for some time.
However I have done token clutterbusting and I have thrown out, in the bin in the kitchen, a lacy maid's apron. Don't ask. But it had a watermark where the cupboard had flooded and I had no idea what to do with it, so out it went.
I would feel a lot less uncomfortable about it if the local cats hadn't raided the dustbin and left lace trailing all over the garden. I dread to think what the neighbours think.
However I have done token clutterbusting and I have thrown out, in the bin in the kitchen, a lacy maid's apron. Don't ask. But it had a watermark where the cupboard had flooded and I had no idea what to do with it, so out it went.
I would feel a lot less uncomfortable about it if the local cats hadn't raided the dustbin and left lace trailing all over the garden. I dread to think what the neighbours think.
The things cats say
I am marginally aware that cats don't talk, though they can be extremely effective communicators. But I am currently completely addicted to lol cats, those funny pics of cats with humorous captions. If anyone hasn't seen this site and has a few days to spare...
http://icanhascheezburger.com
One of their latest has a pic of an irritated looking cat with the caption, 'If you fell into a pond they would be skimming stupid off the surface for a week.'
I think that is such a good put down. I may memorise and steal.
http://icanhascheezburger.com
One of their latest has a pic of an irritated looking cat with the caption, 'If you fell into a pond they would be skimming stupid off the surface for a week.'
I think that is such a good put down. I may memorise and steal.
Digging up the Past Chapter Eight
Chapter Eight is up.
I have deliberately not described the wedding. I may do references to it in conversations as the story goes on, but I could not think of anything in the wedding that would advance the plot.
Also, I am half way through the attempted word count, and despite my dismissive attitude, I am not sure I have enough plot to take it to fifty thousand.
We will see.
I have deliberately not described the wedding. I may do references to it in conversations as the story goes on, but I could not think of anything in the wedding that would advance the plot.
Also, I am half way through the attempted word count, and despite my dismissive attitude, I am not sure I have enough plot to take it to fifty thousand.
We will see.
Monday, 13 December 2010
Tired and desperate
I was 'just looking' at Amazon, and found somehow that FOUR books on how to cut clutter had somehow found their way into my basket...
No, no, no!
No, no, no!
Tired
Not sleeping well, aches & pains, little bear, etc etc.
I am hoping that this explains why I bought £50 worth of knitting books from Amazon. None of the books were expensive. I have absolutely no idea what possessed me.
I just hope I get the benefit of them. It may take me some time.
Thinking about it, I did see a book called 'how to stop shopping'. Perhaps that should have gone into the order as well.
I am hoping that this explains why I bought £50 worth of knitting books from Amazon. None of the books were expensive. I have absolutely no idea what possessed me.
I just hope I get the benefit of them. It may take me some time.
Thinking about it, I did see a book called 'how to stop shopping'. Perhaps that should have gone into the order as well.
Sunday, 12 December 2010
Santa Who?
OH took little bear to see Santa at a nearby garden centre while I did the first few hours of ironing.
I saw them get out of the car and I wondered what had happened. Both of them looked exhausted and fed up. Little bear was clutching a cement mixer and looking even more tired than normal.
It turns out that they had queued for one hour and forty five minutes. OH said that by the end little bear was practically in tears. There is a photo of him on the desk next to me. It has Santa Claus plus little bear looking like he has just been told that Christmas has been cancelled, but he will still get a token lollipop if he smiles NOW.
I don't think I could put them through it next year.
I saw them get out of the car and I wondered what had happened. Both of them looked exhausted and fed up. Little bear was clutching a cement mixer and looking even more tired than normal.
It turns out that they had queued for one hour and forty five minutes. OH said that by the end little bear was practically in tears. There is a photo of him on the desk next to me. It has Santa Claus plus little bear looking like he has just been told that Christmas has been cancelled, but he will still get a token lollipop if he smiles NOW.
I don't think I could put them through it next year.
Clean or clutterbust?
I have a blister on my hand from ironing. I have spent most of the day at the task. This has increased the washing pile with the 'darn, that stain didn't come out two years ago' items. I am more before hand with my ironing than I have been since before little bear was born. I still have ironing, just less. This is cleaning, or housewifery.
It is also clutterbusting as I have already pulled out a bin bag of clothes to go to the clothes bank (not adding it to total until it actually gets there) and hope to add more. Also I plan to get the last few bits of ironing done tomorrow (I guess a mere two hours) so that I can fold down the ironing board with a clear conscience knowing that OH has shirts for a week. The room has been too cluttered for me to risk putting the board down as I wasn't sure I would be able to get it back up without a serious battle. So I plan to take down the ironing board, clear, clutterbust and clean.
I fully expect to find another day's worth of ironing minimum once I get beyond the heaps. There is also a massive box full of old papers that have been downstairs for three years, untouched. I am planning to supervise little bear shredding - he lubs it. I really miss my old filing cabinets. Ideally I want to shred all documents that I possibly can, keeping the important ones and putting all reference numbers etc (but not passwords) into a file in Google Docs.
But then I can sort, stack etc in the dining room and walk in cupboard. At the moment I can't find things - like black bin sacks. We have a plethora of them, but somewhere, not in a logical place. That will, hopefully, change.
Also, I have been told that my sister in law will be babysitting on Saturday. I need to disinfect the house. All the house. Even the bits she will never see. I need to clean behind the wallpaper.
Also, I want to empty a cupboard that I have not opened in several years and have only the haziest recollections of what is in there. I put a lot of craft stuff in there, but the sofa is wedged against it and I haven't been in there for a while. I am not looking forward to it, to be honest, as I expect damp and mice have wreaked some havoc. But I want it clear to put the Christmas decorations in after Christmas and I want to empty it when darling father isn't around. He could well be forthright.
Does anyone want to bet on me having enough energy for all of this? Especially as I am too tired to write (have the next big chunk clear in my mind) and almost too tired to walk? I think I shall aim for self contained segments. Little bear permitting.
It is also clutterbusting as I have already pulled out a bin bag of clothes to go to the clothes bank (not adding it to total until it actually gets there) and hope to add more. Also I plan to get the last few bits of ironing done tomorrow (I guess a mere two hours) so that I can fold down the ironing board with a clear conscience knowing that OH has shirts for a week. The room has been too cluttered for me to risk putting the board down as I wasn't sure I would be able to get it back up without a serious battle. So I plan to take down the ironing board, clear, clutterbust and clean.
I fully expect to find another day's worth of ironing minimum once I get beyond the heaps. There is also a massive box full of old papers that have been downstairs for three years, untouched. I am planning to supervise little bear shredding - he lubs it. I really miss my old filing cabinets. Ideally I want to shred all documents that I possibly can, keeping the important ones and putting all reference numbers etc (but not passwords) into a file in Google Docs.
But then I can sort, stack etc in the dining room and walk in cupboard. At the moment I can't find things - like black bin sacks. We have a plethora of them, but somewhere, not in a logical place. That will, hopefully, change.
Also, I have been told that my sister in law will be babysitting on Saturday. I need to disinfect the house. All the house. Even the bits she will never see. I need to clean behind the wallpaper.
Also, I want to empty a cupboard that I have not opened in several years and have only the haziest recollections of what is in there. I put a lot of craft stuff in there, but the sofa is wedged against it and I haven't been in there for a while. I am not looking forward to it, to be honest, as I expect damp and mice have wreaked some havoc. But I want it clear to put the Christmas decorations in after Christmas and I want to empty it when darling father isn't around. He could well be forthright.
Does anyone want to bet on me having enough energy for all of this? Especially as I am too tired to write (have the next big chunk clear in my mind) and almost too tired to walk? I think I shall aim for self contained segments. Little bear permitting.
How warm?
There was a bee on the outside of little bear's bedroom window yesterday.
I know it is a little warmer but I did blink and look closer. Poor thing looked shocked, but it was 'washing its face' if you know what I mean, so was alive, and as I couldn't believe my eyes I looked closely to see that it wasn't a wasp but a bee.
Just thought - what's happened to the chimney? Too cold to go and look.
I know it is a little warmer but I did blink and look closer. Poor thing looked shocked, but it was 'washing its face' if you know what I mean, so was alive, and as I couldn't believe my eyes I looked closely to see that it wasn't a wasp but a bee.
Just thought - what's happened to the chimney? Too cold to go and look.
Gate on door
Little bear gave another six o'clock shout. Six o'clock isn't early to many, my sister in law would often consider it obscenely late, but she has early nights. I prefer late nights/late mornings and I am short on sleep anyway. Also I had trouble getting to sleep last night.
Tomorrow morning he will awake to a closed door gate!
Also, he is coughing. At least I have cough medicine in, suitable for his age.
Dear heaven, no-one let me near ebay....
Tomorrow morning he will awake to a closed door gate!
Also, he is coughing. At least I have cough medicine in, suitable for his age.
Dear heaven, no-one let me near ebay....
Saturday, 11 December 2010
Knitting gets me cross
I bought a knitting magazine - I should not have bought this magazine as it is an anti clutterbust move and spends money, but there was a rather nice man's sweater on the cover. I quite liked the pattern, you cast on eg thirty stitches, then increase into every stitch for the first row, then knit two together, purl two together etc for the second and repeat. I am already planning on trying it on a scarf. However it is heavy on the wool and for darling uncle it would take @ 1950g of yarn, which is a lot.
The yarn that they recommend is £7.95 for 100g. Give or take, that sweater would cost £150 - one hundred and fifty pounds!!!! Actually I think it justifies even more exclamation marks!!!!!!!
One hundred and fifty pounds. Or just under two months council tax (maybe one and a half months when next year's bill comes).
I remember when knitting was a way of getting affordable warm clothes.
Morgan - I am glad that you are feeling better, I hope you get plenty of rest. I have finished the pompom scarf and will post a picture as soon as I can remember where my camera is. Let me know how the cancan goes. Hester also recommends this. Actually, I shouldn't buy any more yarn, but who am I kidding.
Little bear continues. He had me totally blindsided this evening, as I ended up in an indepth discussion about the ownership of a sheet of reward stickers (he did a wee in his potty!) Finally I chased him upstairs for bedtime, and as he started up he gave me a cheeky grin - and handed me the remote that he had hidden under his top. I never even saw it disappear there, he managed to misdirect me and stash it.
The yarn that they recommend is £7.95 for 100g. Give or take, that sweater would cost £150 - one hundred and fifty pounds!!!! Actually I think it justifies even more exclamation marks!!!!!!!
One hundred and fifty pounds. Or just under two months council tax (maybe one and a half months when next year's bill comes).
I remember when knitting was a way of getting affordable warm clothes.
Morgan - I am glad that you are feeling better, I hope you get plenty of rest. I have finished the pompom scarf and will post a picture as soon as I can remember where my camera is. Let me know how the cancan goes. Hester also recommends this. Actually, I shouldn't buy any more yarn, but who am I kidding.
Little bear continues. He had me totally blindsided this evening, as I ended up in an indepth discussion about the ownership of a sheet of reward stickers (he did a wee in his potty!) Finally I chased him upstairs for bedtime, and as he started up he gave me a cheeky grin - and handed me the remote that he had hidden under his top. I never even saw it disappear there, he managed to misdirect me and stash it.
Little bear is not so good
So far he has, before 9am...
Woken me at six
Fought over ever morsel that has gone through his lips, either for (chocolate biscuits) or against (cereal)
Frozen the computer, I thought he had finished it
Found a Christmas present (OH doesn't always hide things well) and forced me to try and disentangle the 10 Thomas the Tank Engine jigsaws packed together. (Thanks, jigsaw maker, I know that the biggest only had 49 pieces but it is just what my sleep deprived brain didn't need)
Insisted that he is too poorly to go anywhere
Insisted that he NEEDS to go to town
Insisted that he NEEDS to get dressed
Insisted that we go to the German market (not sure that it is still on!)
Insisted that he NEEDS a rest before getting dressed...
OH is still in bed. He had a bad night with a cough that could saw wood. He is really poorly.
I am feeling a bit battered.
Also, the norovirus here is, apparently, enjoying the novelty of attacking the respiratory system, so OH has a really, really bad chest. Little bear has just started coughing. Which means that the break of him going to nursery, which I am absolutely desperate for, is not likely to happen. I can't send him there with a norovirus.
I am wracking my brains for ideas now to keep little bear amused.
Woken me at six
Fought over ever morsel that has gone through his lips, either for (chocolate biscuits) or against (cereal)
Frozen the computer, I thought he had finished it
Found a Christmas present (OH doesn't always hide things well) and forced me to try and disentangle the 10 Thomas the Tank Engine jigsaws packed together. (Thanks, jigsaw maker, I know that the biggest only had 49 pieces but it is just what my sleep deprived brain didn't need)
Insisted that he is too poorly to go anywhere
Insisted that he NEEDS to go to town
Insisted that he NEEDS to get dressed
Insisted that we go to the German market (not sure that it is still on!)
Insisted that he NEEDS a rest before getting dressed...
OH is still in bed. He had a bad night with a cough that could saw wood. He is really poorly.
I am feeling a bit battered.
Also, the norovirus here is, apparently, enjoying the novelty of attacking the respiratory system, so OH has a really, really bad chest. Little bear has just started coughing. Which means that the break of him going to nursery, which I am absolutely desperate for, is not likely to happen. I can't send him there with a norovirus.
I am wracking my brains for ideas now to keep little bear amused.
Friday, 10 December 2010
Little bear is good
Actually, despite the knitting incident, little bear has been really good today. We painted the decorations which have almost worked. We have cuddled and played. He has explained things to me (still no idea what he was saying, but he was very earnest). He has been a monster about my knitting, but I can deal with that. Really I should have been giving him attention and he is full of energy.
One breakthrough today - he is staying in his room even with the gate open, when asked. We may be able to get rid of the gate soon. I would much rather trust him. I have done all I can to make the kitchen safe. Actually I have done all I can to make the whole house safe, he is nearly four, it is time to trust him.
Also, for various non argument reasons, there is usually someone sleeping on the sofa which means that any wanderings are not likely to go unnoticed.
It is a big milestone though, and I have a little lump in my throat.
One breakthrough today - he is staying in his room even with the gate open, when asked. We may be able to get rid of the gate soon. I would much rather trust him. I have done all I can to make the kitchen safe. Actually I have done all I can to make the whole house safe, he is nearly four, it is time to trust him.
Also, for various non argument reasons, there is usually someone sleeping on the sofa which means that any wanderings are not likely to go unnoticed.
It is a big milestone though, and I have a little lump in my throat.
Beaten by yarn, dammit!
Morgan - I hope you are feeling better soon. It is such a dreadful time to get the lurgy as well. I hope you are being properly looked after. I am sending hugs.
As for cancan yarn - I have looked at it warily. Normally I try and stick to 1p per gramme, so it is a bit much for me. But I may yet get giddy, especially if I can get a good deal.
I have just had a sobering lesson, however, from some pom pom yarn. It's not the expensive Rico stuff that is a LOT more than 1p per gramme. It is a more economical version, but still the big pompoms with string between them. You can't cast on, you just have to wrap the yarn around the needle. That took nerve, but I started off okay. Six stitches give a width of around six inches, so the scarf (pattern from the ball band) grew quickly. Actually I was quite enjoying it.
Then little bear shouted at me, as he was bored with me just knitting and not cuddling him (he is not so poorly today but no-one else has any energy to wear him out) and grabbed the knitting. He was suitably reprimanded and I only lost a few rows before being able to pick it up and carry on. Then I tried to cast off. Dearie, dearie me. If little bear hadn't been in the room I would have turned the air blue. As far as I can tell the instructions in English were translated from the German by someone who doesn't really speak either language well but has a cheap English/German dictionary. It didn't work the first time, and trying to undo and pick up was a mare. The second time it didn't work and I managed to pick up from a bit further down. The third time I had to frog the lot.
So I settled down with evil mutterings to have another go. If I can get the hang of it, one scarf will probably only take an hour. However the yarn had got tangled. That in itself is not a problem. I used to buy bangs of tangled aran and double knitting from Leeds market and spend happy hours untangling and winding them, safely away from felines. They were often less than 1p per gramme and I had some really lovely wool and cotton mixes from there. But if you have thin yarn with thick blobs two inches long you have a problem untangling. It all sort of winds around yourself and if the loops get pulled tight you can't pull the free end through because it is full of thick blobs.
I am seriously considering writing off the yarn because I cannot untangle it. It is currently a good contender for the next Dr Who monster. And it was around £4 - a moment of madness that I am beginning to regret.
As for cancan yarn - I have looked at it warily. Normally I try and stick to 1p per gramme, so it is a bit much for me. But I may yet get giddy, especially if I can get a good deal.
I have just had a sobering lesson, however, from some pom pom yarn. It's not the expensive Rico stuff that is a LOT more than 1p per gramme. It is a more economical version, but still the big pompoms with string between them. You can't cast on, you just have to wrap the yarn around the needle. That took nerve, but I started off okay. Six stitches give a width of around six inches, so the scarf (pattern from the ball band) grew quickly. Actually I was quite enjoying it.
Then little bear shouted at me, as he was bored with me just knitting and not cuddling him (he is not so poorly today but no-one else has any energy to wear him out) and grabbed the knitting. He was suitably reprimanded and I only lost a few rows before being able to pick it up and carry on. Then I tried to cast off. Dearie, dearie me. If little bear hadn't been in the room I would have turned the air blue. As far as I can tell the instructions in English were translated from the German by someone who doesn't really speak either language well but has a cheap English/German dictionary. It didn't work the first time, and trying to undo and pick up was a mare. The second time it didn't work and I managed to pick up from a bit further down. The third time I had to frog the lot.
So I settled down with evil mutterings to have another go. If I can get the hang of it, one scarf will probably only take an hour. However the yarn had got tangled. That in itself is not a problem. I used to buy bangs of tangled aran and double knitting from Leeds market and spend happy hours untangling and winding them, safely away from felines. They were often less than 1p per gramme and I had some really lovely wool and cotton mixes from there. But if you have thin yarn with thick blobs two inches long you have a problem untangling. It all sort of winds around yourself and if the loops get pulled tight you can't pull the free end through because it is full of thick blobs.
I am seriously considering writing off the yarn because I cannot untangle it. It is currently a good contender for the next Dr Who monster. And it was around £4 - a moment of madness that I am beginning to regret.
Thursday, 9 December 2010
Little bear has to be joking
2am this morning little bear had a nightmare. So I spent some time cuddling him, then he woke up again at 4am when he demanded an ice lolly. At this point I abandoned any attempt to be a loving mother and told him that mummy was going to sleep and he could sleep in his bed or on the arm chair but I wasn't moving. So he slept in the chair. I had several hours of vaguely surfacing, checking he was alright, drifting off again and repeat. I am sleeping on the sofa as I can prop myself up and protect my arm.
This morning, @ 9am, he was sitting in said armchair eating an ice lolly and wearing sunglasses.
He 'helped' me decorate (more or less) some cakes and 'helped' me thread polystyrene packing peanuts onto a long piece of cotton for us to paint for decorations tomorrow. He insisted on having a go with the needle. I know it was a blunt ended crewel needle but I was watching that needle so closely for the half dozen he threaded before he got bored that I gave myself a headache.
Actually he has been in a lovely, if tired, mood today, so long may that continue!
This morning, @ 9am, he was sitting in said armchair eating an ice lolly and wearing sunglasses.
He 'helped' me decorate (more or less) some cakes and 'helped' me thread polystyrene packing peanuts onto a long piece of cotton for us to paint for decorations tomorrow. He insisted on having a go with the needle. I know it was a blunt ended crewel needle but I was watching that needle so closely for the half dozen he threaded before he got bored that I gave myself a headache.
Actually he has been in a lovely, if tired, mood today, so long may that continue!
Pity Party
I am feeling low. I am tired, OH is really poorly but working from home (and likely to stay poorly for forseeable future as a result), little bear is being little bear and it is feeling tough.
I have been thinking about how often I have been out of the house since 3 November when I hurt my arm. That may be the problem. I have not been out of the house at all since we returned from Pickering 25 Nov apart from the trip to A&E. Before Pickering there was the trip to physio, which I actually enjoyed even if I did nearly pass out. I could relax on the bus (didn't relax in Pickering, not possible).
However today my snow boots arrived, and if OH is at all half way fit then I am going to risk a trip to town on Saturday. That will really cheer me up. I shall have hot chocolate and a cake and then possible find myself near a yarn shop - it's a million to one chance!
I also want to pop into a charity shop to rummage in their bargain basement bin for woollies that are not fit to wear. I plan to unravel them and use them for cushion stuffing. Little bear be happy to help, I am sure.
I have been thinking about how often I have been out of the house since 3 November when I hurt my arm. That may be the problem. I have not been out of the house at all since we returned from Pickering 25 Nov apart from the trip to A&E. Before Pickering there was the trip to physio, which I actually enjoyed even if I did nearly pass out. I could relax on the bus (didn't relax in Pickering, not possible).
However today my snow boots arrived, and if OH is at all half way fit then I am going to risk a trip to town on Saturday. That will really cheer me up. I shall have hot chocolate and a cake and then possible find myself near a yarn shop - it's a million to one chance!
I also want to pop into a charity shop to rummage in their bargain basement bin for woollies that are not fit to wear. I plan to unravel them and use them for cushion stuffing. Little bear be happy to help, I am sure.
Wednesday, 8 December 2010
This is getting silly
OH has been to the drs and has been told he has a norovirus. Which explains the identical symptoms of two other people in his office in a short space of time. Work being how it is, he is working from home. I suppose that is better than nothing.
Of course little bear is pink cheeked and tired. I am not going to mention all the things I am feeling as I am working on the theory that if I ignore them they will go away.
Those of you who are good at swearing, please say a few words for me.
Of course little bear is pink cheeked and tired. I am not going to mention all the things I am feeling as I am working on the theory that if I ignore them they will go away.
Those of you who are good at swearing, please say a few words for me.
Little bear is explaining
Little bear was present when the postie delivered a parcel. It should, theoretically, contain a jigsaw for one of his presents. He, of course, wanted to open it.
I explained that it wasn't for him and pointed to my name on the front. Little bear looked at me with infinite patience. 'We need to share.' he said gently.
He still didn't get his paws on it but it raised a smile.
I explained that it wasn't for him and pointed to my name on the front. Little bear looked at me with infinite patience. 'We need to share.' he said gently.
He still didn't get his paws on it but it raised a smile.
Approved Food
Approved Food has just delivered. The three bottles of fairy liquid included in the order should last me until March. The assorted crisps will probably not last nearly as long.
I am searching out deliveries of groceries and general stocking up for Christmas. The kitchen will burst. I am going to be scratching round to find space for it all.
However I have just emptied into the sugar canister the last bag of sugar which was part of a pallet I got around ten years ago. It is, of course, still perfectly fine and free running. But it seems an odd thought to actually have to buy sugar. I don't take sugar, neither does OH or darling father, so it only goes down with baking really which is intermittent and not always sugar heavy.
Little bear is extremely mucky and very happy. He has helped me bake a coconut bread, he has scraped the bowl (still wearing some of it) and he has had had a chocolate biscuit (still wearing some of that as well. And he has both slippers on, which is a major breakthrough!
I am searching out deliveries of groceries and general stocking up for Christmas. The kitchen will burst. I am going to be scratching round to find space for it all.
However I have just emptied into the sugar canister the last bag of sugar which was part of a pallet I got around ten years ago. It is, of course, still perfectly fine and free running. But it seems an odd thought to actually have to buy sugar. I don't take sugar, neither does OH or darling father, so it only goes down with baking really which is intermittent and not always sugar heavy.
Little bear is extremely mucky and very happy. He has helped me bake a coconut bread, he has scraped the bowl (still wearing some of it) and he has had had a chocolate biscuit (still wearing some of that as well. And he has both slippers on, which is a major breakthrough!
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
Little bear's bathtime routine
When we first got home from the hospital with little bear, we set up a routine. From the very first night we went upstairs around 7pm, changed him, bathed him, fed him while OH read a story and then kissed him good night and left him to sleep. He often went to sleep during his night time feed in those days.
However little bear is a tough negotiator and uses any stop gap and distraction to create a precedent. So the evening routine is now somewhat extended.
First of all OH takes little bear upstairs to brush his teeth and wash. Then they go up to the top bedroom 'to look out of the window' which originally was a distraction technique which has expanded to include playing with mummy's musical jewellery box and contents, unscrewing and putting back together a duck headed walking stick, naming the parts of a sword (a lovely, blunt, faux replica I got for OH one year), finding the naughty ring (it is a costume jewellery ring which OH is adept at palming) and tonight also including playing Santa games on Daddy's laptop.
I have to go to the toilet at this point, little bear insists that I go as soon as they have come down from the top bedroom. On bath night there is a bath, otherwise this stage is skipped. There then follows a full on battle to get him into his pyjamas when he can be either defiant or playfully mischievous but he is not co-operative and OH has to deal with this bit at the moment with an iffy shoulder. Then he chooses two stories (negotiated up from one, we managed to put a lid on three), and then Ratatouille (with OH's voice) sings Humpty Dumpty, Jack and Jill and then the alphabet forwards and backwards. Then it is vitamins, and kisses and lights out. Recently the only way to settle him without hysteria was for me to give him a sing. It started off with one song. I lost count of how many tonight. I always start off with Scarborough Fair, followed by Johnny Todd and Molly Malone. Tonight I was scraping the barrel of my memory for any sort of songs by the end.
Then OH and I stagger downstairs. We are doing something wrong.
However little bear is a tough negotiator and uses any stop gap and distraction to create a precedent. So the evening routine is now somewhat extended.
First of all OH takes little bear upstairs to brush his teeth and wash. Then they go up to the top bedroom 'to look out of the window' which originally was a distraction technique which has expanded to include playing with mummy's musical jewellery box and contents, unscrewing and putting back together a duck headed walking stick, naming the parts of a sword (a lovely, blunt, faux replica I got for OH one year), finding the naughty ring (it is a costume jewellery ring which OH is adept at palming) and tonight also including playing Santa games on Daddy's laptop.
I have to go to the toilet at this point, little bear insists that I go as soon as they have come down from the top bedroom. On bath night there is a bath, otherwise this stage is skipped. There then follows a full on battle to get him into his pyjamas when he can be either defiant or playfully mischievous but he is not co-operative and OH has to deal with this bit at the moment with an iffy shoulder. Then he chooses two stories (negotiated up from one, we managed to put a lid on three), and then Ratatouille (with OH's voice) sings Humpty Dumpty, Jack and Jill and then the alphabet forwards and backwards. Then it is vitamins, and kisses and lights out. Recently the only way to settle him without hysteria was for me to give him a sing. It started off with one song. I lost count of how many tonight. I always start off with Scarborough Fair, followed by Johnny Todd and Molly Malone. Tonight I was scraping the barrel of my memory for any sort of songs by the end.
Then OH and I stagger downstairs. We are doing something wrong.
Little bear is pushing his luck again
The plan was that little bear attended nursery full time this week. This was to give me a break and help rest the shoulder. Hah!
This morning little bear's first words were 'I'm NOT going to nursery - again, again, again!' That was a bad omen.
I got little bear dressed and ready to go out apart from his boots, coat, hat & gloves. OH got up and dressed. All was going okayish, until it became time to leave. Little bear had a meltdown! 'I too poorly, I too tired, I want to go doctors, I want to sleep on sofa, I need cough medicine (hasn't need this for months!), I need to go get milkshake, little boy roars at me...'
OH unfortunately also succumbed to stress. I have no idea exactly how I got them out of the door, but it did involve taking a jar of honey with him to nursery. By this time I was a complete nervous wreck. I was also convinced that he had not only woken the neighbours but also the next street. At the nursery he screamed, cried and physically clung on to OH. He had to be prised off by one of the lovely ladies there.
When I rang an hour later he was having a great time.
The owner of the nursery, who I completely trust, said that there was no evidence of him being poorly (which I agree) and that there was a little boy of the name little bear uses but they actually were in separate rooms. I believe there was an incident a month or more ago, but it looks like little bear is using it as a fall back excuse. She mentioned that she had seen little bear in a face off with another boy and little bear had had no problems in standing his ground (and I can believe that after the horror of this morning).
As far as I can see the main problem is that little bear was actually tired. He insisted on being sung to sleep again tonight and I let him get away with that, but he was looking exhausted. He was almost dead on his feet when he got home tonight. I need to find some way of shortening his bedtime routine (which is getting to the 'over an hour' stage not including the bath) to let him get enough rest. And if he doesn't go to nursery he can try staying home and playing on the computer. He hasn't been exposed to the rationing yesterday (not enough time before bedtime) and today (computer broke all day until OH fixed it after tea).
Tomorrow the plan is that he stays at home in the morning and I assess the chances of falling in the afternoon. If I fall I risk more than a bruised ego, though I am getting a little more confident. I have promised baking tomorrow morning. I am wondering about trying to coax a nap tomorrow afternoon instead of nursery. By Friday afternoon, the time after tomorrow he is due in, he should be more rested.
I feel really selfish, but I feel I could have really done with the break.
This morning little bear's first words were 'I'm NOT going to nursery - again, again, again!' That was a bad omen.
I got little bear dressed and ready to go out apart from his boots, coat, hat & gloves. OH got up and dressed. All was going okayish, until it became time to leave. Little bear had a meltdown! 'I too poorly, I too tired, I want to go doctors, I want to sleep on sofa, I need cough medicine (hasn't need this for months!), I need to go get milkshake, little boy roars at me...'
OH unfortunately also succumbed to stress. I have no idea exactly how I got them out of the door, but it did involve taking a jar of honey with him to nursery. By this time I was a complete nervous wreck. I was also convinced that he had not only woken the neighbours but also the next street. At the nursery he screamed, cried and physically clung on to OH. He had to be prised off by one of the lovely ladies there.
When I rang an hour later he was having a great time.
The owner of the nursery, who I completely trust, said that there was no evidence of him being poorly (which I agree) and that there was a little boy of the name little bear uses but they actually were in separate rooms. I believe there was an incident a month or more ago, but it looks like little bear is using it as a fall back excuse. She mentioned that she had seen little bear in a face off with another boy and little bear had had no problems in standing his ground (and I can believe that after the horror of this morning).
As far as I can see the main problem is that little bear was actually tired. He insisted on being sung to sleep again tonight and I let him get away with that, but he was looking exhausted. He was almost dead on his feet when he got home tonight. I need to find some way of shortening his bedtime routine (which is getting to the 'over an hour' stage not including the bath) to let him get enough rest. And if he doesn't go to nursery he can try staying home and playing on the computer. He hasn't been exposed to the rationing yesterday (not enough time before bedtime) and today (computer broke all day until OH fixed it after tea).
Tomorrow the plan is that he stays at home in the morning and I assess the chances of falling in the afternoon. If I fall I risk more than a bruised ego, though I am getting a little more confident. I have promised baking tomorrow morning. I am wondering about trying to coax a nap tomorrow afternoon instead of nursery. By Friday afternoon, the time after tomorrow he is due in, he should be more rested.
I feel really selfish, but I feel I could have really done with the break.
Monday, 6 December 2010
Operation Clutterbust 7
Darling father is a whirlwind, as normal. He has hung up new curtains - the ones that I made years before little bear was born to replace those I made when we moved into the house in 1994. The ones that have been thrown out are not even fit for rags, and after all, they were made from a remnant from Ellesmere Port market, bought around 1980. They looked very nice when they first went up.
I am stuck on the writing and I am going to go and knit, which will at least reduce the pile of yarn.
I am stuck on the writing and I am going to go and knit, which will at least reduce the pile of yarn.
Password please
Our computer is now password protected.
Yesterday, due to a lack of communication between me and OH, little bear spent hours playing games on the internet on the Sesame Street site. And he threw the most enormous tantrum when we took him off it, which led to him being put in his room for a while as he was incandescent. And then he demonstrated that he could get back on the internet without too much trouble.
One of his presents - birthday - is a Vtech 'laptop' that apparently is linked to the National Curriculum. Oops.
OH and I have agreed, only 30 minutes computer time per day. I am off to scour all the sites I can to find stuff I can distract him with.
Now I need to get the computer to unremember my password for ebay!
Yesterday, due to a lack of communication between me and OH, little bear spent hours playing games on the internet on the Sesame Street site. And he threw the most enormous tantrum when we took him off it, which led to him being put in his room for a while as he was incandescent. And then he demonstrated that he could get back on the internet without too much trouble.
One of his presents - birthday - is a Vtech 'laptop' that apparently is linked to the National Curriculum. Oops.
OH and I have agreed, only 30 minutes computer time per day. I am off to scour all the sites I can to find stuff I can distract him with.
Now I need to get the computer to unremember my password for ebay!
Sunday, 5 December 2010
Digging up the Past Chapter Seven
Chapter Seven is up.
And I've had a review! I am hoping that I can get more. It was a really helpful one as well, and I hope to think on it a lot more.
Also, memo to self, never have a story filled with archaeologists when it takes you so long to spell the damn word.
And I've had a review! I am hoping that I can get more. It was a really helpful one as well, and I hope to think on it a lot more.
Also, memo to self, never have a story filled with archaeologists when it takes you so long to spell the damn word.
Saturday, 4 December 2010
Little bear is devious
My elder brother visited today and brought with them quantities of goodies from darling uncle. This included an advent calendar with chocolates in.
We were being very firm. Little bear could only have one chocolate per day, no more. Little bear whispered to OH that perhaps when my brother had gone they could eat all the chocolates in one go...
This is not the first display of cunning re treats. At Pickering we left little bear in the care of darling father and went to get some logs. While we were out little bear suggested to darling father that the custard tart left behind that was marked for me was actually fair game. 'We could share it, Grandad, and you could cut it in half.'
We are going to have to watch him.
We were being very firm. Little bear could only have one chocolate per day, no more. Little bear whispered to OH that perhaps when my brother had gone they could eat all the chocolates in one go...
This is not the first display of cunning re treats. At Pickering we left little bear in the care of darling father and went to get some logs. While we were out little bear suggested to darling father that the custard tart left behind that was marked for me was actually fair game. 'We could share it, Grandad, and you could cut it in half.'
We are going to have to watch him.
Health update
Shoulder is a lot better after over thirteen hours sleep, though I could sleep now if I was given a chance.
OH has moved the furniture for me, which is brilliant, and looked after little bear and generally been a hero.
Fingers crossed I will have a good night's sleep as well tonight and then I will be fighting back. I know there are people in much worse situations. I think I am suffering from an acute attack of self pity. The best medication is writing and I shall do that just as soon as I can.
OH has moved the furniture for me, which is brilliant, and looked after little bear and generally been a hero.
Fingers crossed I will have a good night's sleep as well tonight and then I will be fighting back. I know there are people in much worse situations. I think I am suffering from an acute attack of self pity. The best medication is writing and I shall do that just as soon as I can.
Friday, 3 December 2010
Self indulgent grumble
I wanted to get the Novel in November done - bang! That's gone. I would have had something of a chance even with the holiday, and I do feel bad about it, but stuff happens.
I wanted to Clutterbust and I wanted to work towards a cleaner, tidier house. Well I was getting back on track but I guess that is going to be fun now. I have just got more or less up to date with the washing. Guess how much ironing is heaped up and how much I am not looking forward to it. And I have done one double cupboard in the kitchen, and I have been baking, and now reaching into cupboards and lugging round sacks of rubbish do not appeal. Every time I get a little further I seem to slide back.
I am grossly overweight which has not been helped by the comfort eating I have been doing lately.
Something I haven't previously blogged about. I had planned to sell scarves on ebay. I have lots of scarves, they are relatively straightforward to knit, they can be done while I am twitchy and need something in my hands but they don't need the sort of concentration that stops me talking/playing/breaking off and helping little bear. I have two sacks of scarves. Being me they all need the ends sewing in and they are in an eclectic range, with mainly weird fur ones but also stripey, ribbed, ruffled and loopy. I 'play' with scarves. I have it all planned out and I was going to register as a business on ebay and as self employed (not that I expected to make much money but I wanted to do it properly). But I am certainly not up to the photographing, arranging, listing and - crucially - going to the Post Office in this weather. btw I had originally planned to get these listed at the beginning of November, just as the shoulder went. Perhaps next week...
I had finally had a decent bath, I love bubble baths! Now I am scared because getting out of the bath could be iffy. Back to unsatisfactory showers.
It could be worse. I am right handed and it is my left shoulder that is affected. I can touch type, though it is making my shoulder ache, and there is nothing life threatening wrong. So many people are in a worse place. I know that it is not really so bad. I can manage the ironing in short bursts, so I don't have an excuse, I can still move things further forward. However I am reserving the right to grumble.
The good side - I shall keep working on Digging up the Past, and I have ideas for a sequel to that!
I wanted to Clutterbust and I wanted to work towards a cleaner, tidier house. Well I was getting back on track but I guess that is going to be fun now. I have just got more or less up to date with the washing. Guess how much ironing is heaped up and how much I am not looking forward to it. And I have done one double cupboard in the kitchen, and I have been baking, and now reaching into cupboards and lugging round sacks of rubbish do not appeal. Every time I get a little further I seem to slide back.
I am grossly overweight which has not been helped by the comfort eating I have been doing lately.
Something I haven't previously blogged about. I had planned to sell scarves on ebay. I have lots of scarves, they are relatively straightforward to knit, they can be done while I am twitchy and need something in my hands but they don't need the sort of concentration that stops me talking/playing/breaking off and helping little bear. I have two sacks of scarves. Being me they all need the ends sewing in and they are in an eclectic range, with mainly weird fur ones but also stripey, ribbed, ruffled and loopy. I 'play' with scarves. I have it all planned out and I was going to register as a business on ebay and as self employed (not that I expected to make much money but I wanted to do it properly). But I am certainly not up to the photographing, arranging, listing and - crucially - going to the Post Office in this weather. btw I had originally planned to get these listed at the beginning of November, just as the shoulder went. Perhaps next week...
I had finally had a decent bath, I love bubble baths! Now I am scared because getting out of the bath could be iffy. Back to unsatisfactory showers.
It could be worse. I am right handed and it is my left shoulder that is affected. I can touch type, though it is making my shoulder ache, and there is nothing life threatening wrong. So many people are in a worse place. I know that it is not really so bad. I can manage the ironing in short bursts, so I don't have an excuse, I can still move things further forward. However I am reserving the right to grumble.
The good side - I shall keep working on Digging up the Past, and I have ideas for a sequel to that!
Good news
Good news - it's probably only a frozen shoulder. I can't do anything and it hurts but it could be a lot worse. They have xrayed me and I definitely am okay in the location department.
And the doctor recommended the yule log in Costa Coffee while OH was getting my pain killer prescriptions and she was right, it was very pleasant indeed.
Darling father was out when we came back. Hope he gets in in one piece.
And the doctor recommended the yule log in Costa Coffee while OH was getting my pain killer prescriptions and she was right, it was very pleasant indeed.
Darling father was out when we came back. Hope he gets in in one piece.
I am starting to type this at 4.44 am but don't know how long it will take me to type. At 4am I woke up after sleeping on my left side. I can't move my left arm properly and I think I have dislocated it again. If not dislocated then damaged it. I am typing this one handed and shivering, as of course I am in my night things.
I can't see any point in waking OH before 7, and I am feeling pretty desperate.
I don't know what to think. On the one had there is a certain amount of movement, and I can move my fingers. But as it becomes stiffer it becomes more and more painful if the shoulder is not supported.
My weird sense of pain isn't helping me here either.
Truthfully - I feel desperate, exhausted, cold and completely lost. I can't keep going through this, I can't look after little bear or darling father, I can't keep asking OH to do things.
Fingers crossed for me please - that it is just sleep.
I can't see any point in waking OH before 7, and I am feeling pretty desperate.
I don't know what to think. On the one had there is a certain amount of movement, and I can move my fingers. But as it becomes stiffer it becomes more and more painful if the shoulder is not supported.
My weird sense of pain isn't helping me here either.
Truthfully - I feel desperate, exhausted, cold and completely lost. I can't keep going through this, I can't look after little bear or darling father, I can't keep asking OH to do things.
Fingers crossed for me please - that it is just sleep.
Wednesday, 1 December 2010
Novel in November
Missed it by a mile, and I do feel a little bit that it wasn't my fault. Not entirely. But excuses are a bit pathetic on this, so I shall just try and get Digging up the Past done at a 2,000 words per day rate. I am really disappointed with myself.
After that is finished I am planning on alternating days when I write for fiction net and days when I write something I hope to get published - if any one knows any publishers or agents please point them in my direction. I also intend to only post up on a Sunday, so there is a decent amount up at a time. Hopefully the rhythm will get me a bit further.
I really appreciate the support, thank you!
After that is finished I am planning on alternating days when I write for fiction net and days when I write something I hope to get published - if any one knows any publishers or agents please point them in my direction. I also intend to only post up on a Sunday, so there is a decent amount up at a time. Hopefully the rhythm will get me a bit further.
I really appreciate the support, thank you!
Snow!
OH made it home in one piece, he was sent home early and I was desperately grateful. He will be, thankfully, working from home for the next few days so I won't have so much access to the computer, so fewer posts. I am just glad he doesn't have the commute.
Little bear is not a happy little bear, and doesn't know what he wants but he wants it NOW. I suspect the pirotin (sp?) for little bear's eczema has made him a bit grumpier.
I plan to forge ahead with my knitting. Also anything else I can do tomorrow while trying to stop little bear from disturbing his father at work.
I will be glad when the weather lifts.
Little bear is not a happy little bear, and doesn't know what he wants but he wants it NOW. I suspect the pirotin (sp?) for little bear's eczema has made him a bit grumpier.
I plan to forge ahead with my knitting. Also anything else I can do tomorrow while trying to stop little bear from disturbing his father at work.
I will be glad when the weather lifts.
Kitchen nightmares
I am not taking little bear to nursery, the snow is falling with vigour. However I promised him that I would let him bake a cake with me.
I need to now go downstairs and try and find all the kit before cooking happens. I am hoping to do the weetabix cake, which is a nice snack on a day like today.
Then there will be the long, long clear up.
I need to now go downstairs and try and find all the kit before cooking happens. I am hoping to do the weetabix cake, which is a nice snack on a day like today.
Then there will be the long, long clear up.
Morgan - Thank you
Morgan - I hope to coax a nice letter for you from little bear. Not only did your sticker books keep a small fragment of sanity during the holiday but they are now part of the arsenal of keeping little bear on the potty until he has done something.
Thank you again.
Thank you again.
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