Friday, 3 December 2010

I am starting to type this at 4.44 am but don't know how long it will take me to type. At 4am I woke up after sleeping on my left side. I can't move my left arm properly and I think I have dislocated it again. If not dislocated then damaged it. I am typing this one handed and shivering, as of course I am in my night things.

I can't see any point in waking OH before 7, and I am feeling pretty desperate.

I don't know what to think. On the one had there is a certain amount of movement, and I can move my fingers. But as it becomes stiffer it becomes more and more painful if the shoulder is not supported.

My weird sense of pain isn't helping me here either.

Truthfully - I feel desperate, exhausted, cold and completely lost. I can't keep going through this, I can't look after little bear or darling father, I can't keep asking OH to do things.

Fingers crossed for me please - that it is just sleep.

1 comment:

Morgan said...

Fingers crossed indeed. Sending gentle hugs as well. And truly hoping that you feel a little better this morning - things always look so bleak in the night.